i am sick, sick of everything, sick of life itself. just when things are turning for the better, i am hit with another shit. i am just tired of pretending to be alright. i am sick of replying to your problems. i am sick of all of it. i feel like shit but i can't get it out. i should be happy, i got a job, i got a girl, i got a family. but hell no, someone out there just hates seeing me happy. i am sighing more than i am smiling. i usually get it over and done with smoking away, but now it does not help. i am in dire straits, i don't know what to do. i am not getting along with my family, my friends just don't seem enough and my girlfriend is just adding to it. life sucks, how i wish there was a stop button. no one understands, no one tries to, no one asks, nobody cares. fuck life, fuck you jan, you're so weak.
And my weakness is that I care too much
